My Why

My whole life, all I've ever wanted to do was to raise a righteous, well balanced family. To have children and be their mother. My youngest is now 18. I'm finding now my kids are grown and I'm being pretty retired from the full time job of motherhood. (Even though I know it's lifelong) it's time to let them have more independence...

As I found my self, really being less needed. I also found myself very sick. Actually sooner than my son was independent enough from a mother. I was not the Mother l wanted to continue to be. I was in a lot of pain... always. I was also 40 pounds overweight.

My husband was found taking over a lot of my responsibilities. I might add, with such great love and support still for me.

I would go in and out of health problems; PMDD, (hormonal imbalances), fibromyalgia, hiatal hernia along with acid reflux, hypothyroidism which led to thyroid cancer (That's a story in itself), hypoglycemia; despite my battle for most of my adult life to try to eat healthy, taking supplements, etc.

I would be found, especially after stress and trauma. In bed four to five days out of seven. With pain, depression, self loathing, from not living up to my standards.

I felt hopeless. I've never believed in suicide. I always thought it was such a selfish act.... 'Didn't they understand how much pain they brought to others.' Then one day I was not doing well. One of my daughters came to me for help. I was curt with her as I was trying to rest. Which was not me at all. This spiraled me into sadness and self-depreciation. I just didn't want to live a life where I couldn't be there for my family. Where I couldn't serve them. Where I felt a burden on them or hurt them in any way. I couldn't believe that those thoughts were crossing my mind. Not of hurting myself... But just wishing I could die. So that I wasn't the burden that I was. I saw another view point of why people do commit suicide. Which was totally opposite of selfishness. I definitely felt I needed to repent of the judgements I had cast, both on others and especially on myself. I know this thinking is not healthy and wrong. But it's hard to come out of that when your deep in it.

I started studying, hard. I decided I was gong to find my own answers because the answers I was getting didn't seem right: "You're just getting old", "you have fibromyalgia," "you're levels are all fine" "there's nothing wrong!!" And again "that's your fibromyalgia...." Yes, BUT WHYYYY. I started searching for the why. Why am I ok sometimes but not at other times? Why do I have to just live with it? Why do I struggle when others aren't? (Which we don't always see the struggle)

This search became my passion, I found answers to those questions and others. I found health. I found out that our hormones make huge difference to our health. The answers are so simple. We just need to apply those answers and trust our own inner light to guide us. We were made to succeed!! We were made for greatness. Something I know is OUR GREATNESS IS DEFINED BY US. Our bodies will set up to be successful at what ever definition we give it.

Change your definition. I can help you with this!

Something I also know is our health is not just what we eat, That's a huge part but it's also what we think, and how we nurture our spirits.

Mind, body and spirit!! Take care of all this and you will have a more fulfilling life as I do now. Yes, I am still on a journey of wellness but I feel that I have stepped into the darkness and come out on the other side of light. I am constantly learning of new things to greater health.

I became a Certified Transformational Nutrition Health Coach in my search for wellness.

I also have taken and completed a coarse by Dr. Annette Bozworth Called Consistently Keto.

I am a certified art therapy coach. I continue to search and add to my learning of attaining greater health benefits in my life and the life's of those who will listen and apply what I share. I am also continuing my education to become a certified hormonal coach with the Institute of transformational nutrition. As well as looking forward to becoming a certified life coach with Brook Castillo. At https://thelifecoachschool.com.

I want to help people find the hope that seemed out of reach for me.

I want to help people have their own self reliance on their health. Everything else should be second. (Meaning Drs. Counselors etc.)

I want to help people have a life and have it more abundantly!!

You have control. You just have to give it to yourself. Have faith in your higher power. Give yourself permission.